what the...?

really?
out of thin air?
is it pms?
or hav u found others to squeeze from?

choice

live the choice you made.

why?

i cant get rid of her.
she'll always have a special place in my heart.
i'll give everything she wants without a second thought.
even if i'm taken advantage of.
i care not.
i'm for her.

push

you insist on pushing me away.
congratulation, im away.
fuck you.

SHE

i loved her then
and i love her still
regardless
i'll love her always
though she'll never feel the same

heart

nobody's going to read this anyway. so to hell with it.

it's been three months. it'll be a lie if i say that i don't miss her and that i don't love her. i still do even though she doesn't.

truth is i was never angry at her. i was and still am angry at myself. i'm angry for making her do the things that she did. angry for making her sad. angry for forcing her to leave me.

still, all that i did and still am doing is all for her though she will never notice it. i have to be cruel, to be kind. if it's for her, i don't mind bleeding.

i need her to hate me. i need her to flush me out of her system. i need her to start seeing others. i need her to be happy. i want her to be happy. she deserves it, after all the suffering she got from me. and i deserve this pain.

possibilities

life is about a series of choices.
if a choice made lead to an unwanted result,
changes should be made;
not to the result, but other things.
when you cant get a strike with a throw in bowling,
you dont go changing the arrangement of the pins,
you change your approach etc.
when doing A gets you nowhere,
try doing B.
the universe holds countless possibilities.